The Rose
‘Well, what are you going to decide’, Epo-Na asked lazily.
She had
picked me up from the hospital in the morning so that I could get some
fresh air, and now we were resting on the frozen ground. She was lying
with her legs tucked in, and I had nestled myself between her legs, idly
playing with one of her hoofs.
‘Decide what’, I asked, not very
interested. I was watching the foals romping around in the distance and
wished that I could romp with them, but I guessed that was out of the
question for a long time to come.
‘Decide whether you are going to be a poor-me-baby, or something more interesting’, she answered.
I sat up sharp.
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Balls
After a while Epo-Na decided we should go to the little river that ran
through the fields. We both bent over the water, and as I was drinking I
saw my face reflected in the clear water. Next to my face was the
reflection of the face of Epo-Na, beautiful and serene as ever.
‘You
see, ‘ she started softly, looking up and dripping water all over by
back, ‘at the root of almost everything in the lives of human animals is
fear. We also know fear, but only at the moment we sense a predator in
the neighbourhood, and even then we ‘sense’ if he is out for dinner or
just going for a stroll. Our fear is about real things, things that
threaten our lives. The fear of human animals is for the most part fear
of things that are in their heads, which do not particularly threaten
their lives, but are projections of things that are not there.
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More about Balls
In-between my intense activities of trying to bend an unbendable leg and
learning to walk up and down stairs, I kept thinking of balls, and how
human animals always seem to divide them into two piles: the good ones
and the bad ones. Then there are also the ones in the middle that are
neither good not bad (in the eyes of human animals). We always divide
the world in two: good-bad, black-white, up-down, left-right, etc..
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The Brain Heart Connection
I had been home for a week now picking up the bits and pieces of my life
and gluing them back together again, but today I decided to take a
stroll in the fields to see what the herd was doing. I also had some
important questions to ask Epo-Na.
It was a drizzly day, and the herd
was standing under the trees, their wet coats shining in the early
morning light, and there was a quietness that only happens on those
drizzly lazy days.
Epo-Na smiled when she saw me coming, and said:
‘There must be some V.I.P. in your mind to come here so early in this
weather.’ I remembered that V.I.P. meant a Very Important Problem, but
since I had decided that the word ‘problem’ should be scrapped from my
dictionary, I told her that after our last conversation I had decided to
change the word ‘problem’ into ‘ball’, so the V.I.P had become a
V.I.B., or Very Important Ball.
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Tsunami
I woke up in the middle of the night with the most horrendous heart
palpitations I have ever experienced. I knew it was the end of me, that I
was going to die. Epona would come for me and take me. So I spent the
night waiting, refraining myself with all my force from calling the
ambulance. I did not want to die in the hospital.
Finally things
cooled off a little and I got up in the morning, feeling I had gone
through one of the worst roller coaster times of my life. Going around
the house like a drunken sailor I waited for the rest of the world to
get up.
Later on a friend, who was staying with me, went to have a
coffee in the village. When he came home, he brought me the news: Japan
had been hit by the worst earthquake in its history and consequently by
the worst tsunami.
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